The wind is blowing and the house has a bit of a chill. Not quite enough of a chill to warrant starting a fire in the cookstove, but the thought crossed my mind....warm & cozy, reading by the stove in my favorite chair with a good book, steaming cup of just-enough-cream coffee. Then I remembered that I have hot flashes. Oh, well, I'll wait until it's colder. A lot colder.
I miss my mom. Most people would think they understand my loss, but our family was a lot closer than some. Since Mom was single all her life, when my love & I first got married we only lived alone together for our first year. After that we asked Mom to join us in our adventures and we've had a glorious life ever since. All the joys and hardships of life, the ups & downs, heartaches and blessings....she was there for them all. She's left a big hole and the house seems quiet. Oh, what a reunion we're going to have someday when we all meet again in Heaven. Save me a place at the table next to you, Mom. We'll have a lot to catch up on.
I'm SO excited. My little primitive Fat Lil Crows are IN A MAGAZINE!!! Not only that, but my favorite magazine....PRIMS. Prims is one of the Somerset group of magazines, designed for primitive artists.
I got an email one day from a fellow prim artist who wanted to know if I'd mind if she used my little crows as a component in her primitive creations. I was pleased that she'd want to, and even more pleased when she told me she would be featured in PRIMS Magazine..........and my little crows, too, as a result! Woo hoo! We're famous! (Ok, maybe notorious?) Not only that, but they're pictured 4 or 5 times throughout the magazine, including on the contents page!
I'm slowly realizing how much time I spent care-giving and how little time I spent house-cleaning. Ugh. My house suddenly looks huge...and...well.....where does all that DUST come from? And why are the windows so hard to see out of? And the top of the refrigerator? Well, no one's that tall anyhow....
I'm working on Christmas primitives now. I used to despair that the stores put Christmas stuff out so early...until I started making primitives. Now I'm elated that all the materials I need for my creations are readily available early in the season when I need them! Besides, what's not to love about the Christmas season? Ignore all that controversy about what's correct and what's not. Just enjoy! Hot cider & doughnuts. Gatherings of friends and relatives to reminisce. Imagining that just-right gift for that special person. Cozy winter evenings, cheerful lights of home. All those wonderful blessings that God has given us. Every good and perfect gift comes from Him!
My youngest daughter just had a birthday yesterday. She is now twenty six and that means that I....am.....not. I used to be. It doesn't seem like it was that long ago, but now I am closer to 60 than 50. People occasionally ask me if I qualify for a senior discount. I'm sure I look at them incredulously. Me? Let's be serious. I am very young. At heart.
Well, 'nuf rambling. I've got snowmen to create and a good book to read ("Unspoken" by Dee Henderson") and my coffee's getting cold.
Enjoy this day that the Lord has made. Rejoice and be glad in it. And don't forget to hug your mom. I have no regrets and I didn't need to say anything to my Mom except "I love you" before she left. How about you?
I have read this post and the one before it. Please accept my sincere condolences on the passing of your beloved mother. It is clear to me that you were the best of daughters to her and she was so fortunate to have you in her life. Since she left, there seems to have been an explosion of activity in your life - with all the craft work and those impressive bags of mixed vegetables for the freezer for example but no matter how busy you are I am sure that you will think of your mother every day for the rest of your life. In that sense she has not gone.
ReplyDeleteThank you, YP, for your kind words. As for the explosion of activity....I'm afraid I'm hardwired for high gear continually. Slowing down would probably be good for me, but it's not in my nature.
DeleteYour mom made quite an impression on me....she will forever live in my heart.
ReplyDeleteLove you all.